God Reigns

If you were to ask me what the title of this post would be an hour ago it would have been something like "anguish of the heart" or "the wounded." But, I am in my hotel room at the Stoneleigh (checked in last night) spending the day with the Lord, and my heart is full of praise and worship.

I am crushed in the spirit and have stumbled in many ways over the past two weeks. But, just now I found Psalm 37: 26-27

"If the Lord delights in a man's way
he make his step firm;
though he stumble, he will not fall,
for the Lord upholds him with His hand."

So, I've had those two verses underlined for many years...never quite understanding that if the Lord is making my steps firms, then why would I stumble? Today I know. I know what I know! Hallelujah!

My steps have been firm these last weeks. Firm in conviction, in loyalty to the Army, firm in truth to myself...but I have stumbled in small ways I'm not going to get into here. I have felt great guilt and sadness. But, in this hour I experience forgiveness and the Lord's mercy.

II Corinthians 4:7-12, 17-18

v8-9 "We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; stuck down, but not destroyed."

An hour ago I wrote in my journal that I felt abandoned last week. Abandoned by Stan, by David and by our boss. On Friday when I left, I was the only one left and felt all alone.

I see now that I was not alone. Funny how God reveals Himself to us when we are ready to see Him. I couldn't see Him on Friday. I do this hour.

I continue to rest and heal.

C