The God of Options

I’ve never had to deal with options before.  In my career, it’s always just been handed to me…yes, I admit it…on a silver platter.  I haven’t had to hunt down jobs, go to interviews, and “sell” myself.  It all is frightening and stomach turning.

So, now at this point in my life I feel God is giving, gifting, blessing me with options.  But, I just need Him to do what He’s done in the past and just open one door, show me one path…these multiple paths are freezing me in my tracks, and I am incapable of movement in any direction for fear of making the wrong decision. 

Obviously He thinks I have enough life experience and wisdom to be capable of making a choice that I feel is good for me and my family.  Most days, however, I have no such confidence.  I still feel like the younger version of myself, naive, inexperienced, simple in heart and mind needing to rely on total Supreme guidance.  Sometimes I want to cry out, “For goodness sakes, Lord, just tell me what to do!”

I should be honored and humbled by the fact that He feels I have matured enough to be capable of making wise decisions in my life, and therefore gifting me with options.  And, by the way self, He did tell you a while back, “I will be with you wherever you place your feet.”

My spiritual mentor said to me recently, “You know, God may be gifting you with options.  He’s giving you the gift of making your own choice.  There may not be any wrong choices.”  Oh boy.

So what’s the problem? 

It could be the lingering feeling of failure from a business venture w/ the biz partner that went rouge at the end.  That took up seven years of my life…prime career time wasted.  Wasted?  I know better.  But, at times it feels like it.  It feels like a huge bad choice on my part.  So, I’m done with making bad choices, and I plea with God to not make me choose.

But, He didn’t make us that way.  He gifted us with choice.  A free will to learn, experiment, create, and also to strike out, stall, misfire, and fail.  But...then, we learn.  And then experiment, study, create, and on and on.

Life truly is a cycle on so many different levels.  I do believe God is my best and brightest light in my balcony of cheerleaders.  He is looking down on me eager encouraging and cheering me on.  He can’t wait to see what I’ll do next and has promised to “be with me wherever I place my feet.”   I am glad He reminded me and you of that today.

He wants us to grow up into wise, confident and capable human beings that He created for great and wonderful things.  I am learning this day-by-day and becoming more self-assured in this knowledge.  I am realizing that by free choice God does not merely mean free choice between good and evil.  He also gifts us with free choice to live our lives in the most creative, magical and giving ways we can imagine for ourselves.

Yae for us!!  Now, go and be, and He will “be with you wherever you place your feet.”