The Debt was Paid

You recall I spoke about forgiveness in my last blog and wondered aloud how to make it stick.

At church on Sunday the Pastor spoke about forgiveness (imagine!), and we had communion. He said, "Is there someone who hurt you? Someone who you feel owes you? Owes you a debt? Well, Christ has paid that debt for him/her. You have to do is lay that person's debt at Jesus' feet."

I know that all sounds very simple and we've all heard it before. But, my eyes were opened on Sunday. And, for the first time EVER communion made sense. It was a beautiful, soulful experience. I realized that until I forgive this person and lay his debt that he owes me at Jesus' feet and leave it there I will not be blessed and OMM will not be as blessed as it could be.

Soooo.....I arranged for Stan and I to have lunch today with our former employee. Whew. It was hard to do...but I hope the Holy Spirit spoke. I prayed hard for that. I asked for forgiveness for any hurt I had caused. It was hard to leave it at that and not look for the request for forgiveness in return. That's not what the meeting was about. If Christ had waited for the Jews, soldiers, Pilot to ask for forgiveness...He'd still be on the cross. That's not what that day was about, was it? So, it was very difficult to lay myself out there and not expect the same in return.

But, I'm pleased to say the apology did come. It was a bonus for sure...but the main thing was that I think I forgave today and it will, in fact, stick.

NEVER...NEVER...NEVER would I imagine one month ago, three months ago, etc...that I would be at this place...the place of forgiveness. I "got out of the boat" today.

To God be the Glory